Cheerful. Loud. Happy.

Those are what my friends describe me. I’m a typical teenage girl living my life like any other girls do in this world. Well, I have to admit, I ‘WAS’ cheerful, loud and happy until one day I was at the park with my best friend. “Kara, I have to tell you something,” he said. “Yeah, sure,” I replied. Then he said, “Kara, sorry but I’m leaving.”

This is a story about my best friend and I. His name is John. Basically, we are best friends since we were both little and innocent. We both live in the same neighborhood. And we’ve been to school together since kindergarten. We have a lot of things in common; our birthdate, hobbies, songs, and the list just goes on. Every day, I will tell John that God loves us so much. And he will say, “That is why God gave us each other.”

“What? Are you serious?” I asked him when he said that he was leaving. He laughed and said, “Kara, I’ll never leave you. You would not even finish up your school assignments when I’m not around to help.” I was particularly very annoyed by his joke and told him that it wasn’t funny to play with other people’s feelings. I pulled a face. “You look cute when you’re angry,” he let out a laugh. I hit him on arm and ran across the park. As usual, he would try to catch me every time I run away from him. But this time, I ran really fast that I didn’t look for cars when I cross the road. I survived. But, he didn't.

It has been two years since I lost him. I was crying by the corner of the room while I read my journal. The date was 8^th June, Friday. I remembered that it was one day before I lost him. “Baby don’t cry, you had my heart, at least for the most part...” we sang A Little Piece Of Heaven together on the way home from school. I was really looking forward for the weekend because our birthday will be celebrated on this Sunday, 10 ^th June. Plus, we will be celebrating it together. I told John that I wanted to go to Avenged Sevenfold’s concert next month. “John, if we could go to Avenged Sevenfold’s concert together, that will be the greatest birthday present ever. And I’ll be the happiest girl on earth!” He just smiled at me as if I was a little girl in dreamland.

Tears kept rolling down my cold cheeks as I continued reading the next page of my journal. It was dated back to 9^th June.  It was the day he left me. I could not bear reading the past because it will remind me that I was the reason why he died. So, I moved on to the next page, 10^th June, our birthday. There were two tickets to Avenged Sevenfold’s concert and a birthday card. Mrs.Cavanugh, John’s mom, gave it to me on my birthday. She said that she found these on his desk when she was cleaning up his room. I couldn’t bare it anymore. I continued crying.

He was a good listener and he was more like a brother to me. I missed him so much. Even though I still have my friends around, it will never be the same without John. But, slowly I tried accepting the fact that everything happens for a reason; and I know that God took John away because He loves John.

If only John knew how much I missed him.